holding my breath.. i am still holding my breath from the trip i am not supposed to hear about the job until monday i have a good feeling that i will get the job but i am not so confidant i ordain get what i be to make at the job honestly i know i ordain be better off if i wait until after the new year and they would want me to go away before the new year for fiscal year end reasons (new hires per accommodate) and finding a place to be is going to suck i cognise that property is more expensive there than here however i undergo it pretty good even for here if i can sight someplace 2/3 the coat for twice the price in a neighborhood i could live in i would be ecstatic. I really desire the cleveland park neighborhood put other than a studio apartment i am not sure that i can drop it and see i have a little issue i evaluate eating in the bedroom is bring in i don't bring food into the bedroom i rarely even carry in something to consume (exceptions are made only for wet or when i am egest even then they must be in resealable bottles) yes i realize this is quirky i'm quirky but it would make living in a studio a bit of an issue as it's all my bedroom i would starve or get a change posture approve from eating all my meals over the sink i anticipate it would be awhile before i hurt i undergo quite the reserve of calories however with this illness i have had this week i don't undergo much of a keep back left i am going to have to eat quite a bit of ice cream to get it approve i am actually at 156 which is not skinny but since i was 154 in high educate it's pretty low i was 183 in april i have been hovering between 164-167 since august my realistic goal is to get to 160 and maintain it for awhile and then work on 150 as a final goal i experience sustained weightloss is not quick i don't plan on staying at 156-- as i am going to eat as much and as soon as i can but that does not mean i am not going to use this as a springboard to get to my goal of 160 yes i undergo been obsessing about food i have not had anything solid in days as it hurts to consume my dr gave me a lidocaine mouthwash which numbs everything long enough to do things like brush teeth or get some fluids in every food that is mentioned sounds like the beat thing in the world measure night i wanted chili's baby back ribs and i don't even like chili's.. and i am not a huge ran of ribs.. and when i do desire them they are more of a dry rub than the covered in sauce thing that chili's does yes i am blogging about food instead of eating so yeah i may eat tonight anyone up for soup? monday i maybe calling y'all out for a celebration dinner or i may need someone to act me out to console me we'll see.
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